Vitae

whatever this is got at me it prodded me to walk naked in London and then take a trip to new York city via hitchhiking in 2007 and there it produced powerful telepathic signals it was so loud a cop sectioned me off and got me an ambulance to saint Luke’s in NYC and then years later I walked to xenia i’m just such paranormal things happened to me my decision making was so bad and I am telepathic and the conjunction of those things leads me to believe the system came at me and tried to ruin my life and then my best friend took my car and then got me evicted and my best friend got at me so when the system and my best friend both work to ruin my life it gets ruined … i’m ready for a rest home … I know I have to wait until i’m 55 but at 55 i’ll be looking for a rest home that accepts Medicare and Care Source Medicaid and i’ll be looking to leave this behind i’m pretty much looking forward to death i’m curious as to what it might be in due time after a much extended life i’m curious about what my father went through I just went to a funeral in March for my father and if death is good enough for him it’s good enough for me … I personally think when death arrives they open up the doors and I step outside the pod at the casino where i’m playing NICHOLAS LAWSON HE WRITES THE PRESIDENT HE WRITES DRAKE HE WRITES THE MAYOR! THERES NO TELLING WHO HE’LL WRITE NEXT! Like I got to play Nicholas Lawson this fantastical character that has this unbelievable typing ability and a great imagination and I got to be this guy I just don’t think people wanted me to be this guy like i’m taking up a spot that someone else wants really badly i’ll probably be Nicholas Lawson again and claim him as mine i’ thorough with Nicholas Lawson like as I understand it in a previous life I was a cop and a rapper and this life i’m a writer and Nicholas Lawson has range I don’t need a lot of characters to decide on one i’m sold on Nicholas Lawson his nut is a good enough nut and his dick is a long enough dick he’s a tall enough drink of water and he might be an athlete in another life draining 3’s but that’s my delusion that i’ve had previous lives but as I get older it strikes me that there’s nothing wrong with thinking that this isn’t it that Donald trump has been president before that it’s completely rational to think there is more to this than meets the eye we have a glowing sphere in the space that just floats in the sky and we’re orbiting around it that’s crazy it’s not so crazy in light of this crazy to think that we take on characters to express ourselves with we play games there is virtual reality the computer is quite powerful we are an advanced civilization and this is how we entertain ourselves experiencing these books that evoke emotions and portray personality that’s not unintellectual to think it’s dangerous to think that if you think suicide is a danger and it is i’m in danger of thinking suicidal thoughts and i’m left alone all the time I think positive thoughts and treat this like a game that’s ever growing darker as a game progresses with the loss of my father my mother pulled away from me and my sister grew dark towards me and my brother grew cold and I was left alone in my apartment