my mental health picture that i can remember starts off in london england where upon smoking copious amount of hash one morning i leave my dorm room and walk naked after showing schizophrenic symptoms for a couple days blessing hallways and talking about world peace and i walk outside naked and the security gets me and they offer me jail or the mental health unit and i choose jail and they send me to mental health where i am for a month and a half before my dad comes and gets me and escorts me home so i scared the state department with that and it was the same mental health problem that i have now it’s just that now i edit it i sit on it i ignore it i play with it i laugh at it the same mental health issue i had in london i have now i just manage it better
and then in 2007 i get a ride to new years eve in new york city from man from craigslist i hitchhiked and the same voices that i heard in london i heard in new york city but it was hella more intense and i told a police officer most of these people were going to die and i needed to get to the canary islands with zoe kirk gushowaty my former girlfriend and he said i got you and took me to mental health at saint lukes where i was admitted for 3 months and scared my parents because i was a missing person and two months later they called and i was found safe and my uncle brought me home
then in 2010 i took a walk to xenia because the forces of god worked on me again had me take random buses until i randomly got off and started randomly walking and i found a trail and i started taking it and it led to xenia and i walked to xenia over two days and was a missing person again and my mother came and got me and took me home
and then in 2016 i was dealing with god again and he needed me to leave my apartment and walk downtown where i was for a few days until i took a rest in a museum and the cops came and took me to mental health where i was for 3 months until i stayed in kemper house in walnut hills and then i tried to move in with a man in walnut hills but he turned violent so i turned myself into the homeless shelter and then i got in trouble there and had to go to the mental health for six months and then i was at montgomery house and then i was at my folks place and then i started taking lithium and haven’t had a problem in eight years since montgomery house and had an apartment and kept smoking weed and this last year is the first year i haven’t smoked weed in like 25 years and i’ve been alone in an apartment basically in solitary confinement and i’ve just worked but scary shit happened to me on the mental health front i was a missing person twice and i’m high risk with the mental health game what it is and i don’t know why such strange things happen to me i’ve lost all of my friends because those are three hospitalizations there were 10 others for various reasons like i was just heavily accosted and told to take medication i didn’t want to take and i eventually caved in and take the medication and all i can figure out is it’s for telepathy control the lithium helps control the telepathy that they won’t talk with me about no one is talking to me about telepathy and what it is or what it means or anything and i’m the one with the scurvy background that doesn’t make sense that my folks never abandoned me my dad never abandoned me i’m the one that never planned any of this shit it just happened because of god god did this to me god wrecked my mind so when you’re out there preaching the gospel of god just know god can do wicked things
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