I’m 45 and in denial about my mental illness. 25 years ago they diagnosed me as bipolar type one and I have since gone on to graduate from University write 8 books and smoke weed. I have Vitae Magazine Blog and it’s where I make my pitch for my 7 books I wrote and have published and that’s my accomplishment. That and the 400,000 points of contact with the internet in more than 20 year I wrote a robust Bible in the comment section of the internet and it’s all been volunteer work. I got better at writing is all I can say about writing online. Someone thought of a way to make money off hard working honest people and I know i’m their product I just don’t know any more interesting past time than using a computer it’s compact it sits in the homei it’s got a typing interface that is attached to an alphabet that I can master.
i wrote 8 books and one of them is about business plans. it’s the kind of book that’s designed to be inspiring like the book of money. it’s business moves you can make to get ahead it’s my accomplishment. my business move is selling books and I havent’ sold one of them yet and in fact I haven’t made the internet interesting enough to consider my work exciting. i’m a boring author that’ well behaved and on lithium. which makes me more well behaved. I used to be a stage poet in Cincinnati and that was an experience I did that for 15 years hitting stages every week to put on the weekly show of my couple poems I had a show poem for the open mic it was called SEARCHING FOR THE WORDS TO HEAL MY MIND and it was this whole piece coupled with LOVE IS SUCH A HARD WORD TO SPELLL those two poems got me through dozens of open mics when I wasn’t trying new material out.
I was a young monument standing for youth and full of energy i’m not like that now the lithium has me tired and my age has me calmed down an really i’m no good anymore. i’m 10 years of College and I know the answer and no one will answer my emails I know I make the pitch and they buy the book and that’s how I get paid but no one is letting me do it Facebook is an entertaining ghost town. the television news never writes back. it’s occurred to me to give up on my computer but the telepathy needs me to use it the 5 or 6 people that talk to me everyday with my own mouth my mother does not believe me its of no importance to anyone it’s cheating and my psychiatrist can’t think of what it might be there is no drug for this I need a psychologist but I have $0 most of the time and my payee handles my bills and getting a dentist is impossible with my insurance like here at $0 it’s hard to find anyone that will talk to you like a good reason to make money is to be popular
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